I haven't written in a while. It's funny how I look back at my blogs, they seem so melodramatic and sad. I only wrote when I was sad and needed an outlet to express my feelings but I want that to change.

Now, I'm in a much better place emotionally and physically. The best thing I did was tell her how I felt. I felt amazing immediately afterward. It was hard not having her in my life. But I took all those emotions and focus from her and put it back onto myself. I just decided to be selfish and take care of myself....it has been amazing for me so far.

I've stopped smoking pot every day, started working out, lost 10 lbs (and hopefully 5 more), stopped drinking every day, got transitioned to another job at work AND got a raise, I'm moving in with my best friend, and I'm quitting smoking June 29th.

I feel good about my life. I really do, and I think that people sometimes put too much stock in others and tend to lose themselves in other people. The best thing I did was to cut the drama out and focus on my self.

I've felt fabulous ever since. I'm glad I got to post about something happy for once!!